Evening one:
random, unexpected make-out issue (lmao) - not me.
noah was awfully affectionate to me. ?
i had all of these things to drink:

8 shots
2 dry martinis, one made by jared. (jared mixed drink = 2x the normal amount of alcohol).
and at least 6 glasses of party punch. which had peach schnapps, raspberry vodka, bacardi 151 & tequila citrico in it.


evening one is now over, obviously.
now evening two will be starting shortly.




also, today jared's ex girlfriend IMed him today (after like a year of not speaking) to say something about how she feels like a fool for just stopping all contact with him without any warning and how it was because she moved & was separated from her dad and idek. stupid whore, obv ok.

so he and i talked. idk. things are v good with that. it wasn't a fight or anything at all. we just talked. he says that when he is with me, the part of his brain that would normally be excited about talking to a girl/finding a girl interesting in THAT way is just shut off. idn understand that but idk. either way, he was saying how he is only interested in me and idk. it was just nice. and he now understands that i am insecure in our relationship because he doesn't tell me these things enough. and how it isnt fair that i'm always telling him that he is my ultimate, my ideal one. how no he is not perfect, but he is the perfect balance for me. blah blah. so he understands now and said he is going to try to give me positive affirmation more often. =)

also, we agreed that if we don't work out this time we're just going to have a murder/suicide lmfao. we pinky swore on that.

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