i just want to say thank you to all of you right now because, even though i wasn't upset about anything yesterday, your responses to my entry were so caring and i love you guys so much. =] it really meant a lot to me to know that none of you were judging about anything and that you guys were so overwhelmed with feelings about everything. ily guys. =]

okay, so last night we had some great sex again, haha. i love it, i think mostly because sometimes we go a long time without having any sex. like the past week. ugh, i hate having my period but now i am off of it and it is wonderful and jared is abso-fucking-lutely gorgeous. we had gone to bed and he was sleepy and i don't know if it was intentional or not, but yeah haha. i don't think it was because he was tired and we just kissed goodnight and all the sudden... haha. so i cried a little bit, but i don't think it had anything to do with an orgasm. i mean, i finished but it wasn't as intense as it was the other night. i don't know, i just know that afterwards i was thinking about my old livejournal entries (which i read yesterday) about him and how i had referenced that after we have sex he kisses me for a few minutes before he even moves off of me. =] and in the entries, i just kept saying how happy i was with him and how we got along so well and all of that - and i don't know, i was thinking about it immediately after we had sex and he was kissing me for a long time (i couldn't believe he still does it haha) before he moved and it was just really sweet and as soon as he laid down he pulled me really close and just snuggled up. in fact, when he laid down he was like "come over here already." haha. i was trying to stay on the edge of the bed so that there wasn't a "wet spot" haha. so yeah, i don't know. i got a little weepy about how much i love him is all.

/ being lame.

so i didn't really do anything at all today. i cleaned up and i am about to go grab the vacuum now, but other than that - nada. haha. i haven't even really been online much. only for a few minutes at a time, so i didn't even roleplay. i did do some major downloading, some of it i started last night. i got 2 goo goo dolls albums, ALL of the rilo kiley albums, the only real frou frou album, the garden state soundtrack [which i am listening to right now =)] and i've got every red hot chili peppers song ever downloading now. that is a huge file, by the way haha.

i only ate a bowl of broccoli with a tiny bit of butter and some sea salt today. it's already five thirty. i'm hungry again [i guess you could say still, but when i finished the broccoli i only wanted to eat a sandwich and we don't have any bread so i forgot about eating more haha]. i think i'm going to wait until jared gets home, and hopefully he'll have brought some bread because he was supposed to do a few things while he was up there today so yeah. -crosses fingers-

okay, i've rambled enough about nothing so yeah. toodles.

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